("It was buried, I tell you!")
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The dog is barking for no apparent reason. She has been like that since this morning and I'm starting to think she's seeing something we're not near our gate.

I feel like how a rock must be feel when dislodged from it's comfortable spot on the mountain-side and left to roll freely towards the barren plains below. I'm finding it hard to center myself. I feel empty, and irritable most of the time. I am starting to forget how it's like to trust people, or to give more than what is asked of you without asking for anything in return. The most I have learned this year is how to become more selfish, and to condemn.

I fear I might emerge from this fall totally changed and even colder than I have ever been in all the twenty-two years of my life. It is true, I consciously chose to do everything I did, and I have learned, and am still learning valuable lessons going through all this.

I hope I don't lose my faith in humanity, because right now, I can feel my old heartless self taking over.

I was tagged by sensei, and now I'm tagging Joanne, Jonette and Celine.

1. When I was a lot younger, I had a security lampin. I learned to live without it eventually, but for a while I couldn't start my day or even sleep at night without it.

2. I used to get up the stage and do whatever the performers were doing when I was about three years old. A time I remember quite well was during my brother's boy scout pin-awarding ceremony. I marched a level or two lower than the scouts. I saluted too when they did, and I didn't care if my parents turned red with embarrassment. I think the audience thought me cute, though.

3. I had my first crush when I was three years old. The (un)lucky guy was the actor Ian Veneracion. He was being paired with Isabel Granada then.
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Now here's an SMS someone sent me last Halloween. It sure made my day.

do u know
y witches
dnt wear
PANTY?

2 gve
dem bter
grip on
deyr brooms!

kya pla
cla TWA
ng TWA!
hihihihi!

NAKI2LITI n
pl ang mga
bruha..

Happy
Halloween!

Wow. I can't believe it's Friday already. The week just seemed to have whizzed past by.

Mitch treated me to lunch today, (Yay! Thanks Mitch.) and we talked about stuff like hot chocolate, ice cream, shrimp, relatives and how you shouldn't leave the table until everyone has finished eating. It was a good lunch.

Work has been fine, so far, maybe because I didn't see my boss for half of the week and I was able to do work-related things that he wouldn't probably let me do if he was around. Sometimes I get the feeling that he thinks I'm his secretary. Hm.

I learned a lot this week, most of them things I've seen and experienced many times before but haven't really paid attention to. Like eating ice cream. I love ice cream. I don't love to eat it everyday, but the feeling is there when I do choose to have some. I like taking my time eating ice cream, taking small jabs with my spoon and savoring every tiny bite. So I was surprised to see that some people chew their ice cream. I don't mean chew like how you would normally (or what I perceive to be the usual way people who often eat ice cream do it) chew ice cream, it was more of like shove-in-your-mouth-like-porridge-and-chew-it-like-congee-with-bola-bola kind of chew. It was blasphemous. I was appalled at first, but afterwards I found it funny, and come to think of it, kind of sweet. Not everybody would chew ice cream and get a brain freeze just to be able to share it with you. So, thanks.

Another thing I learned, well not really learned but rather realized, was that boys can be so cute when they have a crush on a girl. They act coy and look so sweet staring into their monitors when the girl goes in the room. On the other hand, some (supposedly) grown men try to um... get cozy with the girl they like, although not always in the physical sense. Maybe if they do that and they're 15 they'd look cute, but not when they're almost 40.

Some people find other people, especially girls, who tote a long/non-foldable umbrella most of the time weird. I wonder why. Those kinds of umbrellas outlast the foldable ones, they can stand strong winds, especially the kind that blows through the gaps between buildings in Katipunan. They can also double as instruments for fending off over-excited doggie pets when you come home and the lawn's muddy because of a recent downpour. But yes, long umbrellas can be a hassle sometimes. I've lost count over how many times I've startled people from accidentally dropping my umbrella in places like reception rooms, offices and hallways. My umbrella's also tripped one or two people and tapped over a score of them.

Even if the manager says the company is not imposing any dress code, it doesn't mean you can dress up like a student assistant who resides in a dormitory across town. But why the hell not? I asked beforehand, and as long as I don't appear at work looking like a hobo, I'm not violating any office rules. They can't make me go to work wearing heels and slacks! No! Not this year.

There you have it, a brief summary of my life since... two weeks ago. What can I say, my rebellious streak is manifesting itself, unfortunately for the company. Oh! I almost forgot. The president hinted this morning that we will be starting my secret Java lessons soon. I haven't told him yet that I didn't learn a bloody thing in that certificate course and wished I attended my 日本語 classes instead. I have a lot of catching up to do if I want to save face. So I bid you farewell for now as I return to my Hamsters.

"When Filipinos from the US go to the Philippines to visit, they don't come here as tourists... but as smugglers."

So here's what happened in the last seven days.

1. I saw how Ox men can be boring. They may be hard workers good providers for their family, but there's only so much squareness one can stand.

2. I was late maybe four times this week, the script I sent this morning didn't get sent at all and I only learned about it an hour ago. But I also saw a Hamtaro episode I helped translate on TV (one reason for my tardiness last Wednesday), and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, thank goodness for editing.

3. I had a prophylaxis last Thursday and I think I really ought to have my gums x-rayed, so I'd know whether my third molars are impacted or not.

4. My frustrations are taking control of my moods again. I've been so bad-tempered and bossy lately, and I'm starting to want to break and burn things.

5. I spent more than I intended to. My overall budget for the month of November has been considerably diminished because of cab rides (when I'm prissy, I'm prissy), food (because it's food) and unforseen events. Yep, I watched my first stand up comedy show earlier, and was it hilarious. They weren't kidding when they said he's crazy. I'd have liked to get his Hella Pinoy DVD, but then there are bills to pay and he'll be coming back in December anyway. So I hope I'll have extra cash to spend on unnecessaries then.

Nakaw mula sa friend's page ni Faye.

Pupunta ako sa UP at manonood ng Parada ng Parol. Walang trabaho o kliyenteng makakapigil sa'kin... WALA!!!! *maniacal laughter*

(Cuteness!)